| so today is my day of birth. i was born today. today is my birthday. i am seventeen today. what is so special about that? i got squeezed out of a tight spot? congratulations, here's a car. i think my mom should be getting recognized for today. really, i didn't do anything. just along for the ride. why do we celebrate things? Christmas. For obvious reasons, we celebrate the day of Jesus' birth. BIRTHDAYS. again. but this is supposed to be the day of celebration for Jesus' birth, then why is it the biggest time of income for businesses? why don't we all celebrate Jesus AND Mary? i'm ignorant as to what goes on elsewhere in the world that doesn't concern myself, and i'm sure that many people celebrate the effort made by Mary to birth the One i call Savior. i know what i want for my birthday. i want to LEARN. i want all the knowledge i can possible ingest in my pea-sized brain. i want to learn about everything. i'm so curious about everything, but i have no idea where to get started. and in all honesty, i don't have time to learn about the world. please just make time stop, Lord, and make me able to learn about what you have created all around me. i'm not worthy to see the world. i want to go to Rome! i want to go to Ireland, Iceland, wherever i can get a plane ticket. and i haven't even seen everything there is to see and everything there is to learn in little ole' Murfreesboro. i just wish i knew more about the world. i think everyone's Heaven is different. possibly, it's just an idea of mine. because we all want different things, right? but God satisfies all of our wants, and we'll stop with the selfishness, so maybe not. i'm rambling. i think that there is a possibility that Heaven might be different for different people. what if when you wake up, your in a different place?! maybe one day, i'll wake up from the most perfect sleep and i won't feel bad for sleeping to late or anything, because I'm in Heaven. but anyway, i'll wake up from said sleep, and i'll be in a huge library. massive. and i have infinity to read it all, learn in all, soak it all in. and i'll never forget any of it, never have a quiz about it, but i will be able to get the experience from it. if i don't want the book to end, three more chapters appear. and if i get tired of reading, i can go somewhere else. i can go to Africa and help people. i can cure diseases! i can LEARN about diseases. they are so interesting, i loved that book. i can go on all day about what Heaven would be like. i just want to go to a world where i can just read. forever. |
